Rescued again, just in time!
God bless you all. My name is Carol and I want to testify how the Lord Jesus rescued me from the world and changed my life forever.
In the book of Matthew, 11:28 the Lord says "Come unto me all ye that labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest." The Lord is always there waiting with open arms for us to surrender to Him. When I first accept the Lord Jesus in my life, I was 14 years old and I remember the joy I felt when I was in his presence. I remember all the brothers of the church told me "Child, God has something big and special for you. Never swerve your way. "I felt in my heart that what these brothers were telling me was true. However, we have a real enemy called Satan who is always afflicting us in every moment so that we may stop seeking the Lord. The Bible tells us in Ephesians 6:12 that "... we wrestle not against flesh and blood but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.” I at that time was still very young and did not understand what it really was to fully submit myself to the Lord. At that time, I was living a double-minded Christianity. Dear brothers when one is serving the Lord and are not submitted to him with a full heart, the enemy will start throwing darts at us so that we may stray from our paths, let it be fighting with our parents, school problems, peer pressure so that we do things not proper or even to gossip about a friend or sibling of the church. If only I had listened to the advice of the pastor at that time, I would have spared myself much pain. The Lord tells us in Proverbs 4:1-4, "Hear, ye children, the teaching of a father, and stay tuned to know understanding. For I am good teaching; do not forsake my law. "
I started to smoke and get into the clubs, and fight with other girls. All this the ememy put in the way so that it became hard for me to find God. This brought me great sadness, depression and frustration. I began to wonder why me and it was the first time that I tried to commit suicide. Brothers the Word of God says in Matthew 12:43-45 "When the unclean spirit comes out of a man, he walks through dry places, seeking rest, and finds none. Then it says I will go back to my house where I came from, and when he arrives, he finds it empty, swept and garnished. Then he goes and takes along seven other spirits more wicked than itself, and dwell there: and the last state of that man becomes worse than the first ... "
I started to live a disorderly life and had a destructive attitude. I did not care about anything or anyone. I did with my life what I wanted and nobody was going to say otherwise. I was totally lost. My mother was a christian at that time and she told me my behavior was out of control and that I had to leave the home. I remember that day perfectly. I started to neglect and destroy my life tremendously. The Lord Jesus tells us in John 10:10 that Satan "comes only to steal and kill and destroy."
Brothers we should stand firm. Yes, trials and troubles will come to all who believe in God. But if we keep living each moment in faith and holiness, then we can resist the devil and he will flee from us. This is what the Lord says in James 4:7 "Submit yourselves therefore to God resist the devil and he will flee from you." The Lord had taken from me his shield and I was an instrument of torture for the Devil. I still remember when I tried to take my life, I felt helpless, lost and did not want to live just so I didn’t have to suffer. But one thing I remember from all this that I went through. That even when I was in the world and did abominations before God, the Lord had mercy on me. And I understand now that he was always with me even though I did not know at that time. But I remember after a few years I began to feel like a different person compared to others and I'll tell you why. I would go to sleep at night and felt something in me that I could not understand. I wondered why I felt that way. But I would never an answer at that time. There were days where it was raining and thundering and I would remember the creator of everything, which is God. I remember many times while in the world, everything I did and felt in my heart that what I was doing was not pleasing to God. But brothers when one is away from the Lord, the enemy puts chains and blindfolds to ones eyes and ears so that we can keep away from anything having to do with God. But there is a real God who frees the captive, heals the sick, raises the dead and can give new life through Him. The Word says in Psalm 27 "The Lord is my light and my salvation, whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life Of whom shall I be afraid? And Psalm 91 says "He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High. Shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty ... He will deliver you from the snare of hunters, the noisome pestilence. Cover thee with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge... "
God called me once more and this time I answered. I answered and said "Lord here I am, I will not ignore your call. I give my life to you and accept Jesus as my Savior. His mercy saved my life at that moment. From that day on I serve my God lovingly. I'm still growing and getting to know the Lord in a beautiful way. And I still remember those brothers that said "God has something great for you.“ I did not know God's purpose in my life but he did. But the enemy of my soul was not happy with this because he never likes it when he loses a soul to God and he tried to destroy my life again. Six months after I fell in discipline for a while. Brothers being in discipline is not easy and many in today's Gospel can not exceed this. But the word of God says in Proverbs 3:11-12 "My son, do not despise the Lords discipline and do not resent His correction; for whom the LORD loves He corrects, just as a father the son he loves. " Brothers do not think that because you are living in the gospel that this enemy is going to leave you alone because this is not true. Satan does not want the people in the world, they are already under his authority and are bound. But we Christians, who worship God with all our hearts, to us it is that this devil wants to tempt and destroy. Just like he tried to tempt the Son of God in the wilderness. But God made us brothers several promises in the Bible that He will always be with us and take care of us. The word says in the Lord, which is my refuge, the Most High, then no harm will befall you, no disaster will come near you. For he will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways, the will lift you up in their hands, so that you will not strike your foot against a stone."
By the grace and mercy of God, He has allowed me to have experiences with Him. God is real brothers and his justice also. He will punish any person who parts from his ways and that does not serve Him or lives a double-minded life. Jesus is coming for a Holy, blameless and without sin bride. God does not want any of his people perish, but to have everlasting life. The Lord grieves when he sees his people in strife. Brothers the days are numbered and the coming of the Son of God is closer than ever. Many say, "there is still time," but that is not true for time already expired and we are living just a little extra time. It is time to ask the Lord to dig in our lives to see if there is something in us that He does not like and that if Jesus were to come for His church today, we would not stay. First John 1:6 says "If we say we have fellowship with him yet walk in darkness, we lie and do not practice the truth." And in James 4:8-10 says "Draw near to God, and he closer to you. Sinners, Cleanse your hands, ye double minded, purify your hearts. Lament and mourn and weep. Change your laughter to mourning and your joy to gloom. Humble yourselves before the Lord and He will lift you.“ You have to be closer to the Lord today, more than before. There are many who will be left behind. Dear Brothers, I wish that all of us would go with our Lord Jesus Christ and rejoice in His presence for all eternity. But one must live a holy life, subject to our Lord in prayer and fasting and constant communion with our creator and savior.
I'm still learning in this long journey with my Lord. I believe in His promises and I will not fail and stay faithful to my God. I know that difficult times will come but also that the Lord is my strength and my rock and I shall not need for anything other. Jesus died for my sins and cleansed me with His precious blood and one day soon, I will be with Him in His holy kingdom. AMEN!